melgun

everytime i had a chance to smile just a bit..

that chance was taken away from me just like that, with no reason whatsoever.

sometimes i even ask my self,

what’s wrong with me..?

what did i do wrong..?

becoz to me there are no such things as "it just can’t happen" if we just wanna try our best.

i’m sure, if we just try our best, eventually everything will come to place. the right place ofcourse..

i’m a simple woman.. but dunno why, my life could never be simple.

i have felt so much in love & also hurt so bad at the same time.

hope i could see u once again across the room (the room of your heart), like the first time.

just wanna hold u, but i don’t wanna hold u down.

i heard what u said & it’s spinning in my head, over and over again.

i can’t make it alone..only u can make me strong..

the ending of my tale is not yet to be known..

though i’ve been disappointed & hurt so many times..

but dunno why, i still have the strength to rise again…& try to find my love..my true love..

i always think…if we never really fall (i mean fall bad) we can never be able to rise strong..

When i fell, i wanna be able to stand up by my self..by my own strength..

so i think that’s why i put a wall so high before me..to guard me from being hurt..to protect me..

but the higher the wall, it hurts even more when u fall right..?

———–hemmmmm……i realized it just now——————-

so that’s why i always dream of finding the "doctor" of heartache..who can cure me…because i think everything lies within your heart..when your heart falls into the right place, everything will turn out just fine..

i wanna find a guy who can make me believe that he’s the "one". who can make me open my heart..coz i’m not easy to fall in love.

i wanna find a guy who will say.."i know it’s not gonna be easy, but let’s struggle together.."

i wanna find a guy who will say.."let’s try to make it work.."

becoz..

when i decide to try, i will try my hardest..& if in the end, it doesn’t work, atleast i can say that i’ve done my very best.

when i love, i wanna fall madly in love..

& when i finally got married, i wish…ow….i wish….he could by my "one"..

so i can fall madly in love every single day of my life..

so..my would be "one" (where ever u are)..

please don’t write me off just yet..

Last week has indeed became the longest week for me..during the week i kept on asking my self "when will this week come to an end"..and now when the job is done..one thing i can say "no regrets"..

it was so tiring, nerve breaking, roller coster ride..but FUN..just like iman said.."it was a roller coster ride..but i wanna ride it again"…it’s been an honor working with all of those people….having my BESTest friend beside me..can’t think of anyone else i wanna spend my crazy week with, except you win..^^

hope i can now be accepted as a true ATCians..uahauhuaa…^^

cheers to you ATC..

People say your palm is your "map of life"..if one day, somebody told u just a bit of what your life would be from reading your palm..and it’s not a good news my dear..then what would u do with that information..

will you crumble..? or will u use that information as a prevention..? i personally would try to live my life the fullest..And to me the definiton of living my life the fullest is.."finding my other half"..my happiness, my so called soulmate..somebody i love and love me in return..To me, the best feeling in the world is to be loved by the person i love…that’s what i want to feel before i die…

i’m a daydreamer i know..i tried to use my logics..but it just doesn’t feel right..so if i have to die tryin’ to find my "other half", so be it..

sometimes i wonder if there’s really a so called "true love". if u stick by your man 4 lets say few years, does it mean u guys will be together forever.or, is it just because u don’t have the courage to see the world in a different angle. The fear of not being loved, the fear of not being wanted..yeah, maybe that’s why u just stood there. So stupid, that u let your self be treated unfair, be treated poorly. it’s not loyalty, but just plain stupid.

and is it wrong, if one day, u wake up & realized u dont wanna be treated like this anymore, that u dont wanna feel unwanted & unloved 4 the rest of your life with this man anymore?? i don’t think so. So, take a chance. Cause nothing worst can happen..u will never know what u will get until u reach out & try to find your own happiness..